14 Ways Pregnancy After Miscarriage is Different

I’ll never forget the moment I received that phone call. It was a sunny, cold Monday afternoon, and I was sitting in my favorite recliner sipping on coffee. I was elated because the Saturday before we had gotten a BFP-one that we had been waiting on for so long. Our FET had worked, and we were so excited.

As I grabbed the phone knowing it was the fertility center calling with my beta hcg levels, I wasn’t prepared to hear that our hcg level was 14. 14. Our doctor told us that for a viable pregnancy to happen, the number would have needed to be higher. We were having a miscarriage.

I was devastated. I hung up the phone and just cried.

That moment, that instance, that call.. will forever haunt me.

For me, losing a pregnancy was difficult. What has been surprisingly harder, in some ways anyways, was getting pregnant after this loss. Literally we conceived naturally a mere 2.5 weeks later. When we found out we were expecting, we weren’t as elated as we should have been. Between the constant fear of something going wrong and obsessing over factors I had zero control over, I have been a wreck this pregnancy. I haven’t been able to thoroughly enjoy it.

Here are some reasons why my being pregnancy following loss is different:

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When Miracles Happen

They say miracles happen when you least expect them..

There is no doubt that God is real and that He has been with my husband and I throughout our entire infertility season. During the heartbreak and the tears, the joys and triumphs, He has been there every step of the way. He has a funny way of answering our prayers.

As most of you know, Jason and I experienced an early miscarriage back in November after FET. We were devastated. We have been taking this time to reflect, to heal, to mourn and to think about our future. Little did we know that during that time, God was performing miracles.

On the morning of January 19th, I woke up not feeling well. That entire week I hadn’t been feeling well as I was suffering from a sinus infection. I was tired, I was nauseous and for some reason my boobs hurt (ladies, you understand the pain). With little thought, I grabbed the last at-home pregnancy test I had and took the test. To my shock, the test was positive. I didn’t get too excited because I thought that maybe the antibiotics had triggered the test to be positive in some way. I called the Fertility Center and spoke with my nurse. After reviewing my chart, she advised me that they wanted me to go to the hospital to undergo blood work. I obliged, but was cautiously optimistic.

I called my husband to tell him what was going on as he was stuck at work. He immediately got excited. I told him to be calm because we didn’t know what this was.

After leaving the hospital, I stopped at the store to grab a few more pregnancy tests. Once I got home, I took another one which came back positive. Ok, I was starting to get excited. But how could this have happened? I tried patiently waiting, but an hour or so after I did the blood work, I called the nurse to tell her I had had another positive test.

“Congratulations, you’re like really pregnant!” she expressed! “Your hcg level is 79,000!”

“What?!” I cried. Guys, I started ugly crying! Like bad.

“We want you to come in for an ultrasound. We want to see how far along you are. Those levels are really high so you’re either having multiples or you’re really far along!”

I had an ultrasound that day. We were nearly 8 weeks pregnant! Heart rate was 154 and the baby was measuring at 7 weeks, 5 days! Our doctor said we naturally conceived at the beginning of December, somewhere around the 10th. We conceived naturally after experiencing a miscarriage, and we didn’t even know it!

I called Jason to tell him, since he was still stuck at work. He was in shock!

There it is. We’re PREGNANT! We are due with miracle baby #2 September 3rd!

Braxton was also conceived naturally in between treatments, too! Crazy, right?

This wasn’t science. This was alllllll God.

We ask that you continue praying for us during our pregnancy. We greatly appreciate all of the support, encouragement, love and prayers over the years. It’s been quite the journey, to say the least.

I continue to pray for all of my fertility sisters who are struggling with infertility.

All our love,

Danielle & Jason

“I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him” -1 Samuel 1:27